It all started with a simple smile. That smile that can change your life. The most important, his smile. One day, I was walking alone, thinking about something. He bumped into me and when our eyes met it was a first sign of love. With one word sorry, everything started. After a few months, we knew everything about each other. But, that day came, the day I’ll always remember. He saw my pain, my mistakes, my problems and my cuts. He always blamed himself because he didn’t see them before. We got into a fight and then my world started fading. I pushed him out of my life because I couldn’t let him see the real me. But, I wonder where he is today. Did he find someone else? Who loves him like I do? I miss him. I just need that one smile from the start and him to tell me everything’s gonna be alright.
Maybe it was his hair, smile, style or just him. I loved him so much, so much that, he was the only positive thing in my life. I thought he loved me too, when he told me “count all the stars in the sky and you’ll know how much I love you.” I always believed him. Until, I saw him with another girl. Yes, they were having sex. They were enjoying it like they were the only people in the world. My eyes were full of water, I just wanted to explode, but I couldn’t. I drove back home, wrote him a letter and took the gun I had for safety and shot myself, my life was gone. How can I live with that image in my head? God will forgive me. I loved him to the day I saw him and until I died. My love was unique and only for him. My last words were “goodbye Justin, I forgive you.”
Little did I know, he killed himself after he saw me.
I know you can’t see me but, I have to come here everyday. I have to visit my lovely girlfriend, who left me too early. I think of you every minute, second, if possible. How are you? What are you doing now? How’s life up in heaven? I know you’re watching me right now, I know you’re taking care of me, I know you don’t want anything bad to happen to me, like what happened to you. You’re my guardian angel. I’ve changed ever since you left me. Remember that day when we met and we fell in love with each other? Well, I’ll always remember that because you changed my life and you made me who I am today. Today, I’m back with being the ‘old me’ smoking and drinking. I’m making my life a mess but it doesn’t matter since I can’t have you anymore. When, you left I broke down and I’ve died too. Even, when you’re not with me, I love you more than my own life. I don’t care what will happen to me. I’m already broken. I’ll come tomorrow to talk to you. I love to talk to you even when you can’t reply. I just miss you. I love you, beautiful. Goodbye babe, I’ll join you someday.
Authors Note: I know the anon wanted you commit suicide, but I’m tired with that theme, so I’ve decided to make it he commits suicide.Read more